Im going to play it cool for the rest of this week. Its hard though, with all these thoughts flowing through my mind. But, gotta stay postive, thats the only way that i can get through this. As i push everyone away, will there be anyone to stick by and save me. Hehe, i may be overreacting, but hey w/e. Tried to sleep it off last night, but it turned to be a restless night, tossing and turning around the bed, just thinking, thinking. Haha, the thing i wished for was a time machine, so i can go back in time to fix this. Thats all i want to do, fix this. Fix this, and forget anything ever happened.

OoOh, Crushes... how wonderful they are.  Ya'll feeling wat im sayin? Maybe, hopefully, soon. Maybe i can tell her these feelings i have for her. Hopefully she feels the same way. Soon. its just a matter of time. ok farewell ppl.

This is one of the best bands I've ever heard. Their name is MYMP, short for make your momma proud. My friend Ramon got me hooked on them, and i truly do love them. Their music is amazing. I recently got Versions, their latest cd, and one song has the lyrics that makes so much sense. Have u ever heard a song that put into words what ur feeling? Well here's that one song that seems to hit the spot.

MYMP - Say You Love Me

Don't you know that I want to be more that just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
Baby when we fin'lly get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was ice

Please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
and If you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Don't you know that I want to be more that just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
but baby when we fin'lly get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
and don't treat me like I was ice

oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
and if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
and don't treat me like I was ice

oh please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
and if you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine
and if you'd only say you love me darling
Things would really work out fine

im sorry. Cant i just fix this? Cant this just stop, as though it never happened. I feel defenseless, and ulitmately defeated.

So Check it!

Wed. 27    

   I hada a graduation party last wednesday. I like to think it was a huge success. First of all, i invited hella of number of people, all my friends, most incoming freshman like myself. The first thing we did was go bowling. Being the hypocrite that i am, i told everyone to be at the alley at 3pm. I didnt get there until 310pm and ppl were already waiting! SRY! People started to trickle in, and the fun started to roll! It was great to see ppl i havent seen in a long while, including Cammy, Kathryn, Karen, Kathy, Switty, Kathy and Crotty. I prolly bowled around the low hundreds, like the lowest hundreds (102 and below). But i dont care, i wanted to just hav fun w/ teh ppl i love.

          After bowling, we headed over to my house. I had a convey of 8 cars following me, and i lead them the long way and we got stopped by 2 trains! UGH! But then we finally got to my place. Thanx to Oba and Crotty, we had the opportunity to hav 12 ppl play halo2 at once! Fun stuff. Tryin to be a good hsot to everyone, i was constantly on the move. There were some people outside on the porch and ppl in the living room. We ended up watchin the frist episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Air, the one w/ the long intro, fun stuff b/c ppl actually kenw the lyrics. After that, Mark F. hooked up his kareoke to my tv, and ppl sang the night away. OoOoOoOOo, and big props to  Cammy and Kathryn for joining the cheerleading squad at LA, there hasnt been a squad at LA for a long time and they made it! Well, for a little show, they danced a little for us, and it was prtty good! U girls are so talented! That sparked other ppl to start dancing, specially joe D, who  decided to try breaking, but i was more concerned about the chandlier in the dining room cuz that was where everyone was dancing, and joe is pretty lanky so he coulda hit that thang. But he didnt and he acutally does dance well. I guess for the rest of the night, ppl just hung out, and thats all i wanted. Crotty made a head count at one time, and coutned 34 ppl at my place. 34! I knew having a lot of ppl would hav made or broke my party, but thankfully it made it. I hav to thank my parents and my Tita Nancy, b/c the cooked and set u the party, so thanx! I also wanna thank everyone who gave me cards and presents, all were thoughtful and i loved it. But even if u didnt, u made it to my party, and that shows me u cared, I love all of u!

fri 29

     Na gave me a call thursday and invited to join her and the usual great group of ppl to watch a concert in park ridge. It was pretty good, it was classic music at first, and during then i played frisbee with fryed and allen; but then the fun started, they played medleys from pirates of the carribean, star trek, star wars and indian jones... WHICH IS SO COOL! After the concert i headed over to meet up w/ oba at his friends house. We were on our way to Northwestern U to play frisbee w/ other LA ppl. We hit a snag on the way there, there was a detour and with Oba taking point, we tried to look for a away around it. It took us 45mins to finally hit NWU! but its coo we played frisbee on the women's lacrosse field which was artifically surfaced so it hurt when u took a spill. We played for about 30 mins, then the damn lights went out. So wat do we do? We bust out the glow in the dark frisbee of course! Ptich black and a glow in the dark frisbee is a whole experience i think everyone so feel, cuz its so fun! Oba was just a ltitle to fast for me to guard, but thats coo, i had fun, and i think im gettin better at this sport.

sun 31

       Played tennis today with Eric. He's gotten a whole lot better, especially his serve and his volley game. Yes we did lose 6-7 (7-9); 3-6 but they were good sets cuz i havent played in a while, and it tuaght me i need to fricken stretch cuz my shoulder hurts. After taht i played the frisbee w/ Rj, he learns pretty quickly! either thator he knew how to play already, which is always a plus. Yup fun stuff. Oh and i saw jenny for the first time in a long time, and Mr tam. fun stuff.

     Well, thanx for readin this whole entry if u did, and if u didnt, dont u dare leave w/o reading it all! HEY WHERE U GOING!?!? STOP! HEY!

                                                   chasin after u to make u read it all,

                                                                 HunTer

hey

      DAMN. Why are there so many questions running through my head. This summer was supposed to a kick ass one. I would be playin tennis at 7 am in the morning and ending around 10am. After that i would rest for a while . The ngiht would be reserved for the probably the last activites with my friends. I do anything with these ppl. ANYTHING. I love to party. I love to watch movies. I love to just sit around with the same group of ppl day in and day out, just shootin the shit about ANYTHING. And here i am, more tahtn halfway through the summer, only, as i feel, "dipping my foot in the pool" as to my goals of the summer. And this entry will serve as a new check list as to what my damn summer WILL be like. I am gunna stop wasting my time playing video games and mopping around the house. Im gunna stop going to sleep at 4 am. I am, however, going to do everything on my list. Im going to go out a and just chill with the ppl i love, the ppl that hav made a true impact on my life. Im also gunna work out. Im gunna play tennis in the morning, and drive home, soaked in sweat. I am going to make most of wat is left of this summer. So, what r u gunna do w/ the rest of the summer?

   On a lighter note, i hope u like my new background! Elish Cuthbert was an amazing background, for about 8 months in fact. But here we go with miss Iya Villania. She is a hot on the hit game/variety show in the Philippines called WoWoWee. Its a great show. But personally, i think shes the best part of the show. Beautiful aint she? (Siiggghhhh) Just wanna give props to my friend ramon for makin this background, and sendin to me, thanx bud! O and the music? yea its disco, but listen to the lyrics. Miss Villania, your amazing! Not because ur simply just so beautiful, but ur also very funny. I guess i like girls who are funny, hehehe. Peace YALL

              making an effort to make the most of his summer,

                                                                                 HunTer

Hey Yall!

         Man, guyz i really do miss all of u. I feel like an idiot for one promise i made at the beginning of the summer... "Hey, we still hav the summer, and we will all hang out and still chill w/ each other!" Damnit, it sure doesnt feel taht way. I miss all my friends from Loyola. I'd list them all but i no i misss one, so w/e... if ur my friend u would know b/c we woulda talked alot together, shoot the shit w/ each other, rode to CHILL and chilled, played sports, told u my secrets, and i hugged u. yall no wat i mean. I really do feel bad to making promises to u all that we would all chill over this some, and end up not doing any of that shit. So if any of u guyz care as much about chill sometime as i do, hit me up or drop a line herr.

      To all those i made promises to, and broken... i am sorry.

                                                                                     Love alwayz,

                                                                                  Hunter